There are a lot of reasons that I am getting a little worried about my ever present single status. Not the least of which:



And all those things listing the reasons why its good to be single? Not very helpful. I think the only thing that calms me down is thinking that I could devote my life to God and live a celibate life of contemplation and prayer, but socially, that doesn't really have a lot of appeal.

It's messed up, really. It is not focusing on the positive, at any rate. "Not single" has never been a goal that I wanted to pursue devoid of any higher purpose. I mean, after all, the reason why I want to date and get married and all that jazz is because I enjoy being with people and I want to find someone so special that we can be a team for the rest of our lives. It's the only best friend forever that you'll ever have. That's when Valentine's day is fun. That's when going to the movies and getting popcorn and holding hands, that's when its fun. Otherwise, its just hanging out with some bore and wishing you were anywhere else. And neither you nor the bore want that.

Still, you start to feel a little vain and stuck up. You don't click with a guy, you say "no" and its like "What, do you think you're too good for me?" And the truth is... no (well, not until you said that;) ) No, seriously. It's like that old game memory. You have an orange cat and a black and white cat and no matter how cat-like they both are, they just aren't a match. You have to keep flipping over the tiles until you find two that are the same. It's just hard to prove when you haven't found your orange cat.

...not that I want a cat... ever.

Eh, when I reject a guy, all it is is "I'm not attracted to you" for me. I used to feel like I was being too picky and stuff but like, I can't really control how attracted I am to someone, and it's worse to be in a relationship with someone you're not attracted to than to just flat out reject them from the start. I don't think we focus on that issue much in our culture.
» randomjunk on 2013-03-22 02:33:13

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