I am ashamed to admit it but... I'm not a Fan. It's not like I haven't tried! I have tried to become obesessed about some kind of minutia of the world: pop bands, clothes lines, card collecting, stocks, dungeons and dragons, dog shows, anime, you name it, I probably have a working knowledge in it its just... I'm not a fanatic! Maybe there is something inside me that tells me that fanatcism is something to be avoided, that it is some kind of sign of the 'man' taking over your soul. Sometimes, I wish I could just... be obsessed.

For instance, Harry Potter. I liked the books, it is very imaginative... but you know how some people are? They just LOVE them! They know every name and place and you start talking with them about it and suddenly you are getting into a philosophical argument about a place that does not exist. In such conversations, I am poorly unarmed.

Card collectors, you tell them that you played yu-gi-oh in high school and they either start railing against your strategies or they dismiss you entirely because yu-gi-oh is too... mainstream.

Dungeons and Dragons... I guess I was pretty flush in it for a while, but I was never good at stat building... or roleplaying... or DMing... Geez! What was I good at? Oh yeah: being female.

Don't know nothin' about bands, though sometimes I know more than other people. I know more about breeds than most people, and if you put me in a ring, I could probably tell you which dog would win the class, but practically anyone can do that if they know dogs. No, the real fans will not only know which dog was going to win but who's grandmothers and grandfather's have won in previous years and what kennel bred them. Then anime... well I like most of it... but I have barely watched any of it and practically none of my money goes towards it.

There are legitimate reason why I am not particularily obesessed about a lot of things, but sometimes I wonder what it would be like. Maybe it's just a case of: no matter how much you know or how dedicated you are, there is always someone who is better than you are. Maybe I am a Fan and I just am not giving myself credit! ... then again... maybe I don't have to be.

I know 'fan' is short for 'fanatic' but I still feel there's something of a difference. :P
» randomjunk on 2008-04-25 10:33:55

Fans generally ruin things... ZOMG YOU ARE NOT TEH FAN BCUZ U DON'T DO BLEHDYBLAHDBLEHAFOI. I want to smack those people, I prefer to enjoy in my own, on my own.
» ikimashokie on 2008-04-26 12:55:35

be glad that u r not a fan of anything. being a fan only brings misery ... trust me, especially if u r a fan of a male idol or a character...
» renaye on 2008-04-26 11:41:36

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