So I'm in the basement of the graphics room... and then mac next to me has its screensaver on. Innocuous enough, except out of the corner of my eye, it seems like there is someone there and I look over there... nothing! It's like the computer is breathing, this nearly organic algorithm.

So... I'm not happy with either of my projects... I said to myself, "I am going to stay up all night and get these things looking good... but I'm beginning to think that art just doesn't work like that... or I don't, who knows. Am I lazy? I worked over sixteen hours on one of my projects and about five hours on the other one and I'm just burnt out. This is one of those occasions that I wish I could pause time and just decompress for some time.

The funny part about all of this is all I want to do is for school to get out so that I can really focus on my book. I want to live like James Michner, get up every day, work like a crazy person all morning, go play tennis and then work on research for all of the afternoon. I mean how cool would that be? I mean, I already try to do that. I'll go all the way to the library to look up books on blood diseases to create some sort of reality for my characters. I want to learn more about hospitals and vampires and how fast a person can run and how many days would it take for this to heal and how long would it take for that to heal and write source sheets for how werewolves work! I want to go outside and spend three hours just taking pictures of squirrels and crows and rabbits and writing about how all of them come together for a potluck and how the squirrels bring the nuts and the rabbits bring the carrots and the crows bring the french fires! And then I get to draw crow dragging around these full cartons of McDonald's french fries except without the logo...

It's my secret life, my all consuming passion that I get to spend... oh 3% of my time doing, if that. :( So, I am going to go home and write. If there is anything brilliant that comes to me about my project... so be it.

wait a sec. u saying u want to write a book on vampires? no!!!!

oh well... looking at ur layout is making me green-eyed since i'm having a pain in the head of redoing my layout and now it looks like franken-blog.
» renaye on 2008-04-14 02:50:55

wow ... NANO is still long way to go. i have a horror story in mind. just waiting to be executed. hehehehehehehhhehehehehehe.
» renaye on 2008-04-14 03:14:10

How come the crows bring french fries? I thought they had cheese... that the foxes were trying to steal...
» randomjunk on 2008-04-14 06:36:07

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